Alex Stachelek is a filthy bastard.
Ok, so here is the long intro post which I wasn't going to bother with originally.
I'm about 2/3 of the way through my first year of college. That in and of itself blows my mind. I never saw myself making it this far. However, I'm not really sure what to think of it all. At first I absolutely loved it here. The weather was gorgeous, the people were new and fun, and I got to break free from parental control.
I found out some horrifying news about my mother's health in November, and that has basically set up the months thereafter. Over winter break I didn't want to return back to college; once I got here I surprisingly felt the same way. I'm still getting more and more anxious about it.
I've been struggling to free my life of drama and live life day to day but it's very difficult. While most of my problems have been guy related, which is nonsense, they still matter to me.
I met this guy at the beginning of the quarter named Alex. I didn't think much of him, but he was always eating dinner alone when my friends and I went to the cafe, so we started inviting him to eat with us. That moved on to inviting him to hang out with us, and so on. One night after we'd both been drinking, he kissed me.
After that, I guess I started to like him a little bit. We would end up in his room watching movies several nights a week, cuddling and kissing each night. I knew he'd had a girlfriend back at home, but as far as I was told, he had broken up with her. Well, such was not the case. He went home shortly thereafter and indeed came back single, but definitely not available. He told me there was nothing between us because he wasn't sure what was going on with her.
That was half true. There was also a girl here who I knew, through a friend, Alex had a thing for. So, I stopped talking to him for about a week. Then I decided to cut the shit and try being nice again. That lasted all of two days. We started watching movies again, in my room this time. And what do you know, the first night he was over late, he kissed me! And we had a long talk that started with, "Alex, I thought nothing was going on between us." Well, the next night, he cuddled with me and spent the night.
What's wrong with this? Well, earlier that night he went to a party at the house of the other girl here he was allegedly into. That's fine. However, he invited 3 of my friends along with him. And he told them not to tell me that they went with him. Isn't that sweet? Well, the party was lame, so he came back to my room to watch me fall for his lies once again.
My friends, being the good people that they are, told me the next day about it. I was furious and we had a very lengthy dispute over AIM (the best venue for this kind of venting, mm?). He said some very, very hurtful things to me during the conversation. He said things about my friends and how they say things about me to him (which is NOT true). He said no one would ever want to get to know me.
Most of my friends found out the things he said and now want nothing to do with him. They think he's a complete asshole. However, one of my best friends here seems to have no problem with him, even though I ran to her room crying over the things he said to me. She saw me sitting in her room sobbing about the awful things he said, and yet she still talks to him and he still goes to her room. It really bothers me but I'm not sure what to do about it.
Now, I know this is petty drama, but it's eating at me right now. It prevents me from doing work; in fact, I have done no work all weekend. I have a colored pencil drawing due Tuesday, and some Bezold Effect painting/illustration due on Wednesday, and I have hardly anything done on either. I'm scared I will fail the rest of the quarter and jeopardize my GPA.
I am scared to stay here but I am scared to leave. I'm scared of being stuck in a school full of liberals where I am a conservative and overwhelmingly looked down upon. I'm scared of not ending up in the right career. I'm scared for my mom. I'm just so overwhelmed and confused right now, and I have no idea how to begin to fix it.
Stay away from Alex.
I'm about 2/3 of the way through my first year of college. That in and of itself blows my mind. I never saw myself making it this far. However, I'm not really sure what to think of it all. At first I absolutely loved it here. The weather was gorgeous, the people were new and fun, and I got to break free from parental control.
I found out some horrifying news about my mother's health in November, and that has basically set up the months thereafter. Over winter break I didn't want to return back to college; once I got here I surprisingly felt the same way. I'm still getting more and more anxious about it.
I've been struggling to free my life of drama and live life day to day but it's very difficult. While most of my problems have been guy related, which is nonsense, they still matter to me.
I met this guy at the beginning of the quarter named Alex. I didn't think much of him, but he was always eating dinner alone when my friends and I went to the cafe, so we started inviting him to eat with us. That moved on to inviting him to hang out with us, and so on. One night after we'd both been drinking, he kissed me.
After that, I guess I started to like him a little bit. We would end up in his room watching movies several nights a week, cuddling and kissing each night. I knew he'd had a girlfriend back at home, but as far as I was told, he had broken up with her. Well, such was not the case. He went home shortly thereafter and indeed came back single, but definitely not available. He told me there was nothing between us because he wasn't sure what was going on with her.
That was half true. There was also a girl here who I knew, through a friend, Alex had a thing for. So, I stopped talking to him for about a week. Then I decided to cut the shit and try being nice again. That lasted all of two days. We started watching movies again, in my room this time. And what do you know, the first night he was over late, he kissed me! And we had a long talk that started with, "Alex, I thought nothing was going on between us." Well, the next night, he cuddled with me and spent the night.
What's wrong with this? Well, earlier that night he went to a party at the house of the other girl here he was allegedly into. That's fine. However, he invited 3 of my friends along with him. And he told them not to tell me that they went with him. Isn't that sweet? Well, the party was lame, so he came back to my room to watch me fall for his lies once again.
My friends, being the good people that they are, told me the next day about it. I was furious and we had a very lengthy dispute over AIM (the best venue for this kind of venting, mm?). He said some very, very hurtful things to me during the conversation. He said things about my friends and how they say things about me to him (which is NOT true). He said no one would ever want to get to know me.
Most of my friends found out the things he said and now want nothing to do with him. They think he's a complete asshole. However, one of my best friends here seems to have no problem with him, even though I ran to her room crying over the things he said to me. She saw me sitting in her room sobbing about the awful things he said, and yet she still talks to him and he still goes to her room. It really bothers me but I'm not sure what to do about it.
Now, I know this is petty drama, but it's eating at me right now. It prevents me from doing work; in fact, I have done no work all weekend. I have a colored pencil drawing due Tuesday, and some Bezold Effect painting/illustration due on Wednesday, and I have hardly anything done on either. I'm scared I will fail the rest of the quarter and jeopardize my GPA.
I am scared to stay here but I am scared to leave. I'm scared of being stuck in a school full of liberals where I am a conservative and overwhelmingly looked down upon. I'm scared of not ending up in the right career. I'm scared for my mom. I'm just so overwhelmed and confused right now, and I have no idea how to begin to fix it.
Stay away from Alex.
posted by Stacey @ 11:39 PM
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