Help?

I'm so messed up right now. I am so confused as far as my past and my childhood go. I'm basically 100% positive that so much has been hidden from me and I want to know what it is. And I really want to see some sort of counselor or therapist but the thing is for once in my life I'm not depressed or anything. I know it's not a mental thing going on with me, I just need help figuring out my own thoughts. Do they do that?

I like this blog because I know no one reads it and yet I still feel like I'm telling my stories to somebody.

I am so thankful for my amazing father. He is absolutely wonderful and I would be nowhere without him. I love you, Daddy.