Is it bad?

Is it bad that even after tonight, with our violent fight, you're the only one I want? Even after all we've been through I still can't picture not being with you. I still look at your picture and think you're the cutest boy I've ever seen, with the cutest smile, and the most innocent laugh.

I still view you as the only one I can ever love. I still laughed when I looked at the picture of you dancing in your boxers on your Myspace, because I remembered that dance in my head. I am still looking at your pictures on my wall and thinking, "that's mine..." because I can only view you as who I know you as today, which is the person I love so much.

You mean the absolute world to me and I hope that you read this before you decide 100% that you want us to be over. Because I honestly don't know what I will do without you to laugh with and joke with, and talk about sports with even though I don't even like them THAT much, and wrestle with, and do everything that we've done over the past 6 months.

I love you, I love you, I love you, George. With all of my heart and all of my soul, I love you for who you are deep inside of you. I really hope you realize the same things tonight... I'd be absolutely devastated if you realized that you don't want to be with me anymore and you don't love me like you thought.

Pooper, poopie, baby, big spoon...you are my everything. There's nothing more for me to say except I love you to the stars and back, and I hope that you can say the same about me.