All I ever do is complain.

But that's what this is for.

I miss my mother and today it really hurts. I need a mom tonight but she's not here for me. God, I wish she was.

Boy troubles once again; this time, I really liked him. It wasn't a situation where I just liked the idea of having someone to cuddle with. I genuinely felt good when I was with him. I held off the serious talking because I knew it would lead to what every serious talk with me leads to: "I don't like you that way," And so it finally got to the point where the talk needed to be had, and it was, and of course it ended exacly how I knew it would.

He assured me that I'm an awesome person and that it is basically his fault, he definitely (uuuggghhh) is not over his ex, it makes me sick to think about. I have never even met this girl and I'm so envious of her it makes my blood boil. She has the lingering of his feelings; I wish any guy would feel that way over me. I wish I could have him feel that way about me. Nobody lingers over me, nobody wishes they were still with me. Nobody goes out of their way to be with me. GOD DAMMIT.

I don't understand it, I just don't. I'm fun. I'm smart. I'm cute. I'm funny, I make people laugh. So why don't guys like me? Why aren't guys interested in me romantically? Why don't guys ask me out? WHY? God, I really like this kid. It hurts so much not to be able to have him. So fucking much. He's so fun to be around, he's goofy and his eyes are beautiful and he's an amazing kisser and good everywhere else, too.

I hate this, I hate this, I hate this, I hate this, I hate this, I hate this, I hate this, I hate this, I hate this, I hate this.
It hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts...