I guess I just suck at relationships.

I don't know when he'll understand that I'll stop complaining when he starts taking action; all he ever does is tell me how annoying I am because I complain about everything he does. But everything he does is BAD!!!! He's treated me like absolute shit this past week and only apologizes to shut me up so I stop talking. It'd be nice for him to actually realize how upset I am and why; no one should be going out all day, every day and choosing their friends exclusively over their girlfriend. Yet welcome to my life. I don't know why he can't learn to balance friends and his girlfriend. It's either one or the other. For the past 5 months he's blamed me for never seeing his friends, and now he goes out all the time and I never get to talk to him!!!

I just don't get it. I complain about tiny, tiny things that would not be hard to change, yet he can't even be bothered to try to make me happy. It's too much effort for him to try to make me happy for once. He ONLY EVER DOES WHAT BENEFITS HIMSELF. He doesn't care what benefits me; this relationship is ONE HUNDRED PERCENT about him and what he wants.

I swear, I truly swear if he does this ONE MORE TIME, we are over. I've put up with this for long enough; it will end. I'm done being unappreciated, I'm done being unloved, I'm done feeling like I'm not cared about. I've absolutely had it with being second to everything, and I've had it with only getting apologies as an attempt to make me shut up. I'm sick of hearing how annoying I am and I'm sick of crying all the time. He hurts my feelings a lot and makes me feel like this pathetic excuse for a person...

...but at least I'm not the one deliberately hurting someone else.