He is my sunshine...

The other night dear, as I lay sleeping,
I dreamed I held you in my arms,
but when I woke dear, I was mistaken,
and I hung my head and cried.

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
you make me happy when skies are gray
you'll never know dear, how much I love you,
please don't take my sunshine away.

I'll always love you and make you happy
if you will only say the same
but if you leave me to love another
you'll regret it all some day

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
you make me happy, when skies are gray,
you'll never know dear, how much I love you,
please don't take my sunshine away.

You told me once dear you really loved me
that no one else could come between
but now you've left me and love another
you have shattered all my dreams.

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
you make me happy, when skies are gray,
you'll never know dear, how much I love you,
please don't take my sunshine away.

He is choosing between another girl and me this weekend. I asked him to wait until I get home, but he won't do it. I'm so terrified...scared as if I'm standing in front of an oncoming bus and can't move out of the way. I'm praying every day that someone will push me out of the way but it seems like I'm staring at it, and even though it's mere seconds away, each moment feels like an eternity. I'm in love with him more than ever now because my feelings have been tested and through a horrible situation they have remained strong. I will never stop loving him.

I'm convinced he is going to choose the other girl. The new girl. Honestly...honestly...she is no good for him. She's just a fling. She's just new and exciting. I'm everlasting, I'm forever, I'm unconditional. Please, God, help him differentiate between those qualities. Help him see which one of us will stick by him when he really needs somebody. I want him forever. I look at pictures of us and I feel like we are perfect mirror images of one another. I know I'm only 20 and he's not even 18, but I feel like he is that other half of me. The missing puzzle piece that rights all my wrongs, and calms my fears. I feel like this all is a nightmare that needs to end right now.

I'm convinced, truly convinced he will mess up and choose this other girl. A few people close to me say that if I can stick through it and get home, once he sees me on prom night, he will realize he wants to be with me again. They say if he loves me like he has always said he does, if he really does, he won't be able to deny those feelings once he's inches away from me. I hope and I pray that this is true. If *anybody* out there reads this...please pray for me. Please pray that George realizes how in love with him I am and how unconditional my love is. I will never leave him, I will never hurt him. Please pray that he understands that and chooses to stay with me. I know if he chooses that, we will be happy together for the rest of our lives.

With George, I can see what our kids would look like. I can picture our household. I can't see that with anybody or on my own. I know he's the right "one". I just know that he still may choose her and it will be the wrong choice...please, pray for George. Pray for me. Pray for us.

Thank you.