He'll probably see this but I don't care.

I feel like adding this:


I don't think he loves me as much as he loves/loved his ex-girlfriend, Kala, and I don't think that I can fill her shoes. Even though I think she's a filthy little bitch, she took up 2 and a half years of his life and that's just a huge burden on me because I know he's still not over her (no matter what he'd like to believe...it's so obvious from the way he's constantly talking about her, like he's trying to make himself believe that he's happier without her.)

I hate looking back and seeing all the comments they've left each other (and yes, I've seen them) because.... I leave him those comments and he never answers them back. So that, to me, is clue #1 that she > me. I just can't tell if he actually loves me, or if he just loves the idea of having found somebody before she did.

Ugh, I need some reassurance. I wish that he would do something to show me that he loved me, rather than just saying it. Saying it only means so much... I want him to cook me dinner or give me flowers or buy me a cute (fucking, it can be cheap, I don't care) ring to wear or something stupidly romantic like that. I just want him to do something to prove to me that he wants to be with me and that he's not just getting back at Kala.

*Sigh*