LOLOLOL.

Maybe someday my boyfriend will realize that making his CURRENT girlfriend happy is more important than making his EX girlfriend miserable.


If she was in your past, you wouldn't think about her and talk about her, and post Myspace surveys about how much she loved anal.


You can't live your life without her in it. Fucking face it.

The 3 month curse.

The 7 am texts before you go to school every day.
The phone calls as soon as you get out of school.
The LiveJournal entries about how much you love me.
The away messages about how amazing I am...






...ALL gone. None of those happen anymore. I feel like you don't love me. No matter how many times you say it, if you don't start doing things to back it up, I'm not going to believe you anymore. I do things for you; I write you letters, I text you all the time, I call you all the time, I mail you things... I DO stuff. You do literally nothing for me.

I can't live like this.

I don't know what to do anymore.

I don't know what to do with George. I'm simply at a loss. He constantly is asking me why I'm with him. He's the one I chose, and he's the only person I want to be with. And I don't know why he isn't okay with that. I'm constantly being told to list the reasons why I'm dating him, and when I do, he just tells me why my reasons are wrong.

I try so hard to make him happy but apparently I just can't do that. I don't know what else there possibly is to do.

Thanks, to everybody.

I just wanted to take the time to thank all of the amazing people in my life. Thank you all so very much for your slow abandonment of me. Ever since my mother died, you have all slowly left me for dead. So thanks.

All of my "friends" have decided that being there for me and having out with me just isn't worth it. I literally feel 100% alone. Even with George, because half the time he goes and does wicked hypocritical stuff, like the exact stuff he tells me pisses him off when I do it. He got pissed at me for talking to my guy friend after I'd just called him (an accident, my friend had just come out of the building), yet today he did the EXACT SAME THING TO ME. And didn't apologize, he just kept making excuses for why he did it. I don't understand why he hasn't figured out that excuses fucking piss me off more, and that an apology (a sincere one) would make me feel better. But as always, he doesn't give a rat's ass. He's too concerned with himself to care about me.

I feel, like many other times in my life, like I'm going crazy. I feel like literally everyone else can see it except for me. I don't like the feeling. If I'm the one who has pushed everyone away (which is probably more the case), then I'm sorry. I just have not been able to recognize everything going on inside of me lately. I feel like I'm going crazy..... but I don't FEEL crazy or unhappy. So that's the part I don't get. I feel like I should be on crazy pills but I don't feel like I need them.



Somebody help me....